Baby Tucker

Tucker is finally here with us and we are so happy to have him. It has definitely changed our lives so quickly. Who knew that you could be this tired and that nights could last so long!!!! For the first couple weeks he would NOT sleep in his own room and crib but he has finally gotten used to it (thank goodness) and he sleeps in there and wakes up every 3 hours to feed like clock work. Luckily I have an amazing husband that takes half the night for me and feeds him so I can get some sleep. We have to feed him bottles and I pump so he still gets my breastmilk. He had really bad jaundice and they wanted him to have his system flushed so we were ordered to give him bottles and some formula which made him hate breastfeeding. So we do bottles now :-) At least now I can actually see how many ounces he is getting and have peace of mind that he isnt starving.

Sunday on 10/10/10 I was having consistant contractions for the third day in a row so we decided to go into the hospital just to see if I had dilated anymore or anything. I had been to the doctor 2 days before then and I was at a 1 and 90% effaced. We were pretty sure we would get turned away but Sean really wanted a 10/10/10 baby and my induction date was just a few days away so we decided what the heck. Well of course I was the same but they could see my contractions were every 2-4 minutes apart and then they noticed that the baby's heartbeat was dropping during every contraction which made them nervous. So they decided to keep me and induce me slowly and watch the heartbeat of the baby. So I had to wear an oxygen mask for a couple hours to help the baby out since he seemed stressed with the contractions. They were going to do the balloon thing to help dilate me more and then start me on potosin. So the doctor comes in and he is one of the 2 that would deliver me depending who was on call. He is brand new so we didnt know him very well but he was in the WORST mood ever. Even the nurses were turned off by him. He came in and didnt even say hello. Literally just told me to open my legs and then he just about killed me. Without telling me he decided to do the whole dilating thing with his hand instead of the balloon. So im writhing in pain and my sister is running to my side to hold my hand. Then he finishes and takes his glove off and doesnt even say sorry or anything. he claims he was tired cuz it was 12:30 AM but its not like I wasnt tired too.

So i get on the potosin and waited awhile till I got an epidural. Then the next morning the other doctor came in and checked me and decided to break my water cuz i was at a 3 or 4. So I got the epidural which I was terrified of and it was not completely painless like so many people say. So that kicked in and it was heaven. They break my water and that was even better haha. But then all the sudden I start feeling really bad contractions again and they keep telling me to just push the button which I do and it does nothing for me. So I go from being dilated at a 6 to a 9 1/2 feeling every contraction with the epidural not working. The guy comes back in that did it and checked it and said that it must have pocketed or something in my spine and not gone thru or something so he re did it again. Then I went completely numb and was happy once again. But of course 20 min later I feel the contractions full on once again and they are telling me its time to push and I am freaking out that I am feeling everything. LUCKILY i felt every contraction like normal but down low I felt nothing. So the baby coming out was not painful...just the contractions. So I am one of the few people that the epidural doesnt work on.....just lovely.

So baby's head comes out first and then instead of having me just push him out the rest they quickly pull him out and rush him over to the table and he isnt crying and was completely blue. So the nurses are calling doctors and saying code blue and stuff and then calling the helicopter to get ready to transport. It was the worst feeling in the world being stuck on that bed and just seeing nurses running everywhere and knowing my baby wasnt breathing. They ended up bagging him and then I see them wrap him in a blanket and literally run out of the room with him. He didnt breathe for 8 minutes and they dont know why. His heart rate and everything else was great but he just didnt want to breathe or cry. Once he started breathing, he still needed help for the next 24 hours and was under oxygen and very close surveillance. He wasnt allowed to leave the nursery and I didnt get to see him for a few hours and I would have to go in there to see him. We were pretty scared and they ran tests on him the next couple days and could not figure out what was wrong. Finally the doctor came to us and told us he was a miracle and to put a smile on our faces and be grateful cuz no one will ever know why this happened. He said he had never seen this happen before where there was no damage or birth defect or something more serious. It is unheard of that he didnt breathe for so long and then all of the sudden started to. So we feel extremely blessed to have him here with us.

He weighed 6 lbs 15 oz and was 20 1/2 in long. He is just a little peanut. He just had his 2 week appt and he is in the 11th percentile for weight and 7th percentile for his head hahaha. Just tiny. It is definately a lot more work than I ever thought it would be to be a mom but I love it. Of course you have the brief moments of "what have I done" but they pass. I definitely never knew you could feel so much love so quickly for someone. And for it to be so strong. It is an experience I will never forget.